Living Life Wore Out

Living Wore out is not how the Lord planned for me to live. Photo by Heather

There are days I just really want to stay in bed, but there is no way that can happen. 

From the moment the alarm clock shouts time to get up! I have responsibilities demanding my attention.

Oh Gosh! Have I really snoozed my alarm for the 4th time? 

I would love to hit the snooze button on the days I wake up feeling groggy instead of refreshed.

I do try to prepare for each day the night before, on most days. Part of preparing for the next day includes going to bed at a decent time, so I have enough sleep.

However, sometimes it does not matter if I go to bed early. I still won't get enough sleep. I wake up groggy, clumsy, with  no energy, and without motivation.

I try to sleep. It just seems I cannot relax enough to go to sleep, or to even quiet my mind. Maybe this is due to having a busy or just plain old stressful day.

As I lay in bed wide awake, but feeling exhausted, I just know the following day will be a struggle.

I know I will feel like I am moving in slow motion, because it will seem like it takes forever for me to complete a small task.

I will have brain fog, and have trouble remembering things or even making decisions.

Unfortunately, everything on my to do list will probably not get done.

Sleepless nights make me feel like I just go through the motions of the next day and don't really live or enjoy my life. 

Nights like those leave me living life wore out.

On days like that, I am very thankful for an understanding husband. I am grateful he understands my need for rest. I really appreciate him not being upset when things are left undone on those days. I am also thankful he reminds me to rest and take care of myself.

But you know what?

I cannot get all my strength for the day from him. If I try to, I will make him feel drained as well. I don't want to do that. I am meant to be his wife, and that is exactly what he needs me to be.

I need the strength that comes from somewhere else. 

When I wake up feeling so exhausted, I don't feel like praying or reading my bible. But, you know what? That is exactly what I need. Without spending time with God, I will continue in the same pattern and live life wore out.

I cannot go through any day with my own strength. Even if I did get a good night sleep.

I need the strength that comes from the Lord each day.

I realize, after I pray and ask Jesus to supply my body with energy and strength to do what he wants me to do each day, he does. I can feel my energy and strength grow.

I feel motivated to get up and get busy.

Part of taking care of myself needs to be time spent with God. It should be the very first part of my day everyday, and maybe even the last part before bed time. 

I should seek him first. Not just try to fit him in. I have to be intentional and make time to be in his presence.

And he said. "My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." Exodus 33:14 ESV

It is in his presence that we will be refreshed and find rest.

Let me encourage you to be intentional about praying and spending time in God's presence. This is a very important part of your day and a good way to practice positive selfcare.